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I was looking back at my previous posts and I realized something important that I wanted, no, needed, to talk about.
It is so easy to talk about setbacks when you aren’t experiencing them. You tell others to push through them, tell them what they shouldn’t do, because it seems like common sense. And really, it often is common sense.
Except when you’re stuck in the middle of a setback.
I’ve been dealing with setback after setback the past couple of weeks. When I started working out I initially dropped a nice amount of weight, but then it started to come back. I thought maybe it was muscle building, but I was starting to have trouble with hunger and occasional dizziness. I talked with my Nutrisystem counselor and we worked together to make some changes, including eating more and eating at different times, to help ensure my body had the fuel it needed to complete my workouts.
I was working out too much for the amount of calories I was taking in, putting my body into starvation mode. I was averaging ten miles each night on the bike, for over 500 calories lost each workout.
I was completely obsessed with the scale. Every morning I was on it, checking it, comparing it, analyzing it and getting frustrated and angry at it. I was doing everything I’ve ever told others not to do. It was like a compulsion and I couldn’t stop. It was getting me down and I was having trouble getting back up.
But then finally, for seemingly no reason whatsoever, I started losing again, and I finally broke the 200 mark. I am no longer 200 pounds!
I’m no longer 200 pounds!
It’s amazing and thrilling and it takes a huge load off my shoulders. I’m still losing, even though I took a couple nights off from the bike (I was tired, yo!) and still ate on my new, strange-to-me schedule.
I recently took some photos for a project I’m working on, and I realized that I had no desire to alter my face like I normally do. I didn’t have to erase a second chin, or sculpt some cheekbones back in. I may have healed a blemish or two, but I made no real, hard changes to my photo.
It was a great feeling!