I have noticed many bloggers taking on the 30 Days of Truth challenge. After waiting quite a long time, I have decided I might as well give it a try too. Hopefully it will seem fresher for those who see the same question answered everyday, as I’m about an entire month behind, ha! I may not answer a question every single day, but I will do my best to answer them all eventually.
Here are the Qs:
Day 01 Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Day One is a tough start! Something I hate about myself.
I could easily say I hate by body, Lord knows it has gone through a lot over the years. But I don’t hate my body. It’s a work in progress, something I can change. Hate is so complex, is there really something that I hate that I cannot change? Sure, there are many things in my past that make me cringe to think about, but I don’t think it really causes me to hate something about myself. No, wait, I’m wrong. I hate my brain. I can’t fix the damage I caused to it from years of trying every narcotic known to man. Some days my brain functions so poorly I’m rather convinced I’ve developed Alzheimer’s. And there is absolutely nothing I can do to fix it. Sure, I had fun, I really did. But was all that fun worth the time I now spend trying to remember what a wall is, or how old I am, or even how to keep my hands from shaking and my face from going numb? No, probably not. But it was it is, and I have to accept it as such. And of course, to teach my kids that drugs are bad, except for natural things that come from the ground, like marijuana and shrooms. Those I don’t have a problem with.
This photo was taken while I worked at the Eagle’s Gulch in downtown San Antonio. That bar was pretty much the drug capital of the whole damn city. You could score any drug during any time of the day. Some people would even trade bar tabs for drugs, which I would resell for profit. But, I can’t say I hate the place, or the people, because that was life back then. And it also happens to be the place where I met my husband. We’ve come a long, long way since those days. And no, he is not pictured here.
Some memories turn out to be so much different from when they first occurred, eh?